I am now within the healthy/normal hcg range of 0-10..my number this week was 4.5....(BIG SIGH OF RELIEF). I can't believe after 11 weeks I am finally able to breathe again. In all truth more than anything else I feel exhausted. Like I have been holding it all in for the last weeks waiting to hit this mark. I also feel like I can finish grieving. I did grieve the loss of my baby but I feel like with all the other medical issues and my nieces health issues after her birth, I had to put my grieving to the side. I feel like now I can finish grieving and look forward. I truly feel like the worst is behind me and I am so hopeful and positive about what God has in store for me in the future. I am well aware that there could still be issues between now and the 6 month mark that I am allowed to try and get pregnant again, but God has given me so much peace that everything is ok now. I find it hard to believe that this waiting game to hit "normal" is over.
How do I begin to thank you all? There are so many people who encouraged, prayed, cried, laughed and listened to me. I can't even put into words the blessings you all have been to me. I am so thankful that I shared what has been happening in my life. I wanted to share in hopes God would use it for good to bless others but I was so surprised how blessed I was in return. I hope at some point I can thank you all in person.
The plan now is to have 3 weeks in a row of 0-10 range and then "medically" I will be cleared to get pregnant in 6 months. I will only have to go in once a month for blood work until I get pregnant again. :) In the mean time I just wait patiently and enjoy my sweet daughter.
Once again thank you all so much for caring. :)
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