My blood work is back for this week and I had a 40% drop! Praise the Lord. I needed some hope after last week. I am currently at 172 hcg. I need to be at 10 or below to be "normal". :) For whatever reason I am much more emotional about it this week, cried happy tears. I guess after the disappointment of the drop last week I was really learning to "let. it. go". There is absolutely nothing I can do to make this process go faster, believe me I have tried everything people have suggested. I have to believe there is a reason God wants me to wait a little longer and while I wait I need to focus my attention, trust and hope in Him. There is not a person on this planet that can give me the peace and strength I need to get through this situation.
Waiting is so hard and waiting patiently is even more difficult. I realize that my impatience is me wanting to have some control over this situation. I want to be proactive and be doing something to help speed this process up and God is showing me "slow down, focus on me and just wait". That is so challenging for me but with each day I am learning. Each day I grow stronger and I grow closer to (Lord wiling) being pregnant again and then soon after having a sweet baby. I am cherishing this extra one-on-one time I have with my sweet Natalie. I am trying to give thanks in ALL things. Thank you all for your prayers and encouragement, they are such an incredible blessing to me. Thanks for caring. Love you all.
Nic
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