update

Hey all! I decided I should update and let everyone know how I am doing. So far so good!! I got great news today my HGC levels are down to 900!! This is a giant drop. Last Wednesday I was at 1700 and I had to get my levels checked today because I leave for Montana tomorrow. I was trying to prepare myself for a small drop since I wasn't going a full week in between tests so I am really shocked and so happy with the numbers.

Physically I am feeling a little better every day. I am working out again (slowly lol!) which is really helping me feel better. Emotionally I am doing good. Each day is a bit different. Now that I am starting back to "normal" life I realize I have to face people in public places and talk about my miscarriage. The other day I wanted to get a pedicure but the place I go the ladies ALWAYS ask me when I am going to have another baby. They are the sweetest people in the world but I just wasn't sure if I could face them and talk to them about it. I always go to the same place and I decided it was time to buck up and go. Of course 5 seconds into the conversation babies and pregnancy came up. I decided to just tell her what happened...and you know what? I was fine. I didn't break down in tears, it didn't ruin my day, it was all ok.  What I am starting to see is by sharing my pain and loss with people, people turn around and share so much more with me. They gal doing my pedicure opened up about her life and her struggles, it was a blessing and I am sure neither of us will ever look at each other the same way again. I hope that by being open about this it is one way God can use me to bless others.

Natalie and I leave for a 10 day trip to Montana tomorrow. I can't wait to be with my family. In even better news Piper should be discharged tomorrow or the day after from Missoula NICU! So that means she should be home in Butte by the time I get there on Thursday. I can't wait to snuggle up to that precious baby. Thank you all so much for your prayers for her. They worked, they healed her little body!

So things are looking up for my family. :) The sun is shining and God is blessing us. Through all of this we have all been brought closer to the Lord. To really learn the meaning of trusting Him with every fiber of our beings.  Through the grief and suffering there has been born so much blessing. God is good all the time. He loves each of us more than we can ever comprehend. :) Thank you all so much for praying for us. Have a blessed week!